If you’re anything like me, you swing wildly between two ends of the spectrum.
Me writing a post: This is gonna be epic. It’s one of the best posts I’ve written to date!
Me wishing anyone would view, like, or comment: What was I thinking? I’m garbage at this!
Why do I bring this up? To let you know that if this is you at all on any day, that you are not alone, friend. See below for a few reasons I talk myself into thinking I’m not even a bookkitten let alone a bookdragon.
I’m a slow reader. I’m talking, Kindle will say “Average reading time for book 3 hours and 46 minutes,” then it learns my reading speed and the book suddenly takes 8 hours to get through. Aside from the sad fact that I won’t read near as many books as many of my book blogging friends, it also feels like that makes me inadequate in some way.
Other reviews feel way more professional. I’ve read so many other awesome book reviews that provide the perfect balance of book summary and well written opinion, giving a high level overview in a concise and mature voice. Then I look at mine and they feel overly passionate, messy and chaotic.
New book bloggers to the scene already have more followers than me. What am I doing wrong and how are they so effortlessly cool? I don’t think I’ll ever have the je ne sais quoi they have that draws readers, deservedly, to their site in droves.
Some days I don’t feel like reading or blogging. If I’m meant to do this, it must be something I always feel like doing, yeah? Everyone else seems to post every day and have these great topics that draw lots of discussion to boot. If I don’t have that same passion or drive, maybe I’m not cut out for it.
What are we supposed to do with all of this insecurity? I’d love to say chuck it in the trash and forget about it, but that’s terrible advice because it will never happen… at least not for this insecure mess of reading over here. My next thought is, I’m sure authors go through this as well, so we’re not alone. But I’ve never lived the “misery loves company” adage either.
I think the best way to live with this is to breathe through it. Recognize that these thoughts come from comparing. You’re not at war with other book bloggers. They’re your friends. You want them to succeed (hopefully, or you need to work on the friend thing). Realize that no dragon needs to breathe fire daily to know what it is. It just knows it has fire flowing through its veins. So, you there, reading and writing and connecting, that’s the fire in your veins. And that makes you a goddamn BookDragon!
If that wasn’t enough, here’s one of my fav pick me up songs for this Sunday: Warren Haynes’ Soulshine.